5/04/2005
Exams!! wa...so idiotic.i think i'm going to fail all the subjects..uh-oh.the radio's playing jay's song.i think i'm going to cry again.and this song is...sad.. )= humph.ok,back to exams. (i hope i dun break into tears..) ya.so.my lit sux.really.the question 1(b) was so.shocking. =X i really dunno how to do that question.not lying.if i cant even do well for the only subject i'm good at...i dunno wat's the point of..studying.*haix.really.i'm very disappointed..very.today's chem is.bad.really.i mean,chem is another subject that i have confidence of.and now... )= somehow i think i'm not focusing on my studies.too many 'distractions'.*haix
okay.so.i know i've decided to leave.but then.why.why must he always sms me when i've just made a decision?when i've jus decided tt i cant stand all this anymore,he has to sms me?is this sort of like,making me change my mind?!i'm so troubled.really.i dunno what to do.it's like,it's easier said than done..*haix i see other ppl's problems,i think to myself "wa lao.their problems r so small as compared to mine.their's are so easy to solve!"i wish i can trade lives with someone.humph.
i really wish there's a shoulder i can cry on.someone to comfort me.yet i look around me,and all i see are faces of strangers.i dun mean it as really lah.it's jus a literal comparison.but yea,all i c r faces of strangers.why?cos i dun think anyone understands me that well.that well to the extent that i can spill everything to tt person.no.all i c are ppl who only sees the surface.ppl who dun look deeper.deeper into the soul. )=
i dunno.i dunno why i'm even bothering myself over such stuff.but then,really.i dun have anywhere else to place all my troubles.i guess the best i can ever do is to spill something here.at least i get some load off my heart.at least maybe i feel lighter and better this way.i'm not sure if this really helps.all i know is that i'll be breaking down soon.i can feel it.
with loves; hugxkeiko
5/04/2005 02:00:00 PM
