4/25/2005
yes..i'm feeling grey...had a bad day.right start from when i woke up.then bad things started happening.i think i jus landed in serious trouble.i dunno what to do.haix..if only i have someone that's really trustworthy,someone that's really close to me,someone that..well,really understands me.i wish..i really wish to talk to someone.i think i cant take this anymore.i'm scared..scared that i'll take another chance at my life.why?why must this person suddenly appear in my life like this again?i've promised myself to move on.to forget.but now..haix.i really dunno what to do.i've got so many problems right now,i dun even know which one is more serious,which one is more important,which one i should try to solve first.i seem to have problems in all aspects of my life. )= though i keep telling myself everything will pass and it'll be back to normal soon,i dun think it will now...sad.but i guess to everyone i'm always so cheerful,so happy-go-lucky,so "normal".it's all a mask,a facade..i really wish i have someone to talk to. )= i think i can cry everything away.that's what i always do..cry and then feel better.but sooner or later all these troubles will come back.i dun want to think so much.my brain capacity is not that big.and it's mid-years soon.cant afford to think so much and then neglect my studies.but the problems still exist!i'm so vexed..
i want a normal life.i want my parents to leave me alone.let me handle my own stuff.let me bear the consequences of whatever i do.i know by restricting so many things,they actually care for me and love me,and they're trying to protect me,but i think i'm old enough and mature enough.i just wish that they leave me alone...
with loves; hugxkeiko
4/25/2005 05:40:00 PM
