3/09/2005
Oh Great...
Argh i got back my progress report today!! and i so damn hate it... )= it's like,i failed a math!!and now the report has a 48...going to cry le.correction,i already cried.and i'm going to cry all over again. *waaa..... the only thing i'm happy with my report is the e.lit result.cos it's the same mark as the 'top in level' mark...i'm top in level!! but obviously my parents won't jus focus on that. stupid. and then a math result is the first subject on the report lor,can u imagine,it's like,once u look at the report,u see a 'fail' mark.i'm very upset. but i just dunno why when i'm sad nobody seems to notice. maybe it's cos i really can put on an act. i dun feel like doing anything today.i'm so sad....sad... )= but my tears are like...not coming out.*haix my L1R5 is 14..percentage..around 65 point something..although it may be 'good' when compared with some ppl,it's still bad in my parents' eye.i think i've let them down...dad had something like a 'prep talk' with me this morning.i really think i've let them down...i dunno,i think i can feel dad's stress...with his work and all.i dun think he's having a good time at work with his new boss. (and i'm not rich) dad says he may be fired in like 3 months.i hope that he's wrong...i dun want him to lose his job...i want things to be fine,i want my road to be 'easy'...*haix. i really feel guilty about not being more sensitive towards my parents' feelings..but then,they also have to spare a thought for my feelings....i'm also stressed with studying! )= i think now i've become very negative...and unhappy.*haix. i already broke down.i can confirm that.and i even did something that i shouldn't do,something that really proves that maybe i need couselling. and that something is foolish. )= never mind.nobody will know.i put on such a great act in school...
with loves; hugxkeiko
3/09/2005 05:11:00 PM
