2/24/2005
Ellox~....hmm...today bio paper...only six of us in 3e has to take that paper..and i'm one of them... =X not boasting that i'm triple science de..jus trying to say that being triple science is not easy!!! =X i was so stressed and actually...i think i'm going to fail it...last two questions i did something wrongly..and then both answers are identical... )= i dun want to fail...i cannot afford to fail...not because my parents will kill me(though that's one reason) but rather because i'd be letting myself down..i cannot slack this year..i cannot "heck care"...sec 3 le..must be more mature and responsible..i must prove to dad that i can study..i cannot let him look down on me...it's so embarrassing that you own dad looks down on you... =X
hmm...yea..i told meiyan the 'stuff' already..i'm really frustrated that she's still so insistent...how come she cannot let go??i mean,it's not like it's for real?i never thought that crushes could be for real..and i'm always under the impression that she's just under peer pressure... =X but i dunno how true my assumption is lahx...i just hope that she'll 'back off'..i mean,i already tries my best not to be nasty to her(in my tone and all that)cos i know it'd hurt her...but now,she being so insistent really sort of pisses me off!!stubborn girl...like won't ever grow up liddat.. =X okay..i know it may be 'bad' to say that..but really.i really wish she could stand and look at herself from our angle..our point of view..it's really frustrating..i dunno why she's changed so much...i just cannot figure that out.. )= i dun want her to change..it's really stupid..huiyi is right to say that you dun have to try to be popular.if you are popular,then you are lorx...no point trying...i admit lahx..though i used to try last time,i realised that it never works..so,yea,i'm being myself now.and who cares if i'm noisy,disturbing or wat?as long as i dun make anyone so irritated that they hate me. =X then i think it's really okay to be your REAL self... xD i hate ppl who are 'fakes'..copy everything..from top to bottom..so un-original! =X hahax...
okay,of course i'm not scolding meiyan...i dun wish to do that.i hope huiyi hurry write a letter to shake her up..to wake her up..to tell her not to be so stubborn...i want to wake her up too..but then.i dun want to be so 'invovled'.it'll be of no good to me anyway...i already have enough problems of my own!!!argh!
the most important thing to learn in life is to be able to let go and stand up again.some things are just not meant to be yours,it's no point trying to hard to get these things...
with loves; hugxkeiko
2/24/2005 04:01:00 PM
