2/21/2005
i really think i'm going crazy. =X seriously.dad is really exerting alot of pressure on me.i think i'm going to break soon...but then,just nobody seems to understand.i wish he was more sensitive.but i dun blame him la,afterall,i dun think he thinks that i'm actually filled with so much problems.but he was the one who said that i can tell him anything!!argh...i'm really going crazy... =X *haix* and then there's the problem with dad...he called back that day from overseas just to give me a prep talk.about how i haven't proven anything to him...i was thinking of this sentence today in class and then i just broke down...i almost couldn't stop.if given a choice,i'd rather continue crying.nothing hurts more than having to hold back your tears..i've always believed that if you feel so painful inside,you should just cry... )= but i obviously couldn't cry all i want in class today..it'd be so embarrassing...*haix* and then i can't cry now..no tears...i feel so cooped up!!
why is always math that i have to fail?okay lahx,today also got take back chemistry results and i'm quite satisfied with the results...40 1/2 over 50..which means 81/50... (= but math.... )= yucks!sometimes i also hate myself.why is it that i can't prove myself to dad???!!!ugh..
with loves; hugxkeiko
2/21/2005 04:43:00 PM
