11/16/2004
i can go to the klas chalet le...yea!~ and i get my hp for two days...to use at the chalet..watever.i think i should be glad that i'm even getting my hp...stupid.haix....but mom says dad told her to give me my hp only when i'm going out of the house.watever.so means i cant sms in the morning.so means i get to save my sms..whatever.haix....i also dunno...am i really falling?can i save myself before i fall too hard??i really dunno.okay,so i'm in a confused state once again.
i think he really took my message seriously lorx...cos he in the end also never reply..until i sent a new one to say that mayb i sounded too harsh cos' i was really frustrated at that time...haix...but anyway...i really want time to pass faster.i want my hp...i want to..okie,sms him.whatever.but then,i dun want time to pass so quickly..cos at the chalet..it's somehow the last time the class gonna b together..i want to treasure all the time we have together.haix...somehow i still feel like i'm the third wheel...or something like that..it's like both of them are closer lorx..i dunno why i have this feeling lahx...and then they both did better than me..but i dunno if they chose the same subject combi or not lahx..haix...
i dun want to feel so odd one out...i remember last year at the chalet..we all slept in the afternoon,but then they both woke up and went to bowl..without me.u can see how left out i felt...haix..i hate that feeling..that's why i want to go chalet and also dun want to go chalet..sharing both feelings at the same time..so sickening.
haix...i have nothing to do online also..so i guess i'll go hav my breakfast..yea...bye then.
with loves; hugxkeiko
11/16/2004 10:30:00 AM
