11/09/2004
ellox...this is my first entry...haix...haven been feeling good lately.dunno why.u think it's all linked to him?i've no idea.maybe it is.am i missing him?so what if i do?what can i do?u can't possibly ask me to go and call him...that's so out of the question!i'll never call him.unless he calls me.hahx.dreaming arh!wake up lahx.he?call you?please.he only sms.he doesn't pick up the phone to call de!haix.really dreaming...okie.so what?so what if i miss him?he will never know that.i won't tell him...since now that...i have asked him for that favour.i think he will not agree.but hey!all i ask for is for him to say,"okay,i'll try to forget u.but u know u'll always have a place in my heart.."i dun mind if he says something like that.i mean,at least,i can go and study peacefully.at least i know that i can choose to forget or remember...then i have a choice.but right now,right now it seems like as though i'm obliged to feel...i dunno,feel wat?the same way towards him?i think i've done enough for him.jus that he doesn'e know,because i never told him.i dunno,i dun think this can carry us far.that's why before sec 3 comes i want to give up.so that i can concentrate on my studies...but how am supposed to give up peacefully if he doesn't do the same thing??this is dumb...i really really dunno what to do.i know that part of me says that i actually dun bear to give up,but another more sensible part says that giving up is the correct thing to do...i'm really confused now.i just hope that he replies to my message.haix...or is he doesn't reply,it means that i really can give up.okay.set.i'll do just that kkx?i also hope that he reads my MSN name.it says,dun bother looking for me..i'm leaving for real.give me three years kkx?i'll c u at HCI in 2007...[keiko-luv.ebloggy.com] of course the ebloggy part is to tell people about my new ebloggy's blog lahx.haix...okay...gtg!bye..
with loves; hugxkeiko
11/09/2004 09:15:00 AM
