5/10/2005

oops!!!no wonder there's a saying tt one musn't be happy too early!ugh.i can't make it for my dental appointment on the 14th.because of wat energy-conservation course.ugh!!this jus makes me hate guides more!humph!and then i have to have the dental thingy for two consecutive tuesdays,and the energy-conservation course is two consecutive tuesdays right smack in the middle of June!!!wtf.that means...my dental app cant be in June!!wtf.that means i wont be able to take my braces out in June!wtf.that means i gotta bear with all this pain for a longer time!to think that i was so happy yesterday.heaven's jus unfair.heaven takes away my things too quickly.my things are taken away before i even have time to replace them.wtf.i hate life!

with loves; hugxkeiko
5/10/2005 03:03:00 PM

5/09/2005

haha.it's time that i finally receive some good news. (= yupz.today went for dental appointment.and yay!!i can finally take out my braces!in one month's time.hee.actually less than a month.yay!june...wohoo!i'm so looking forward to june man..jus hope tt i'm free on the 7th.haha.and 14th.yea!~i'm so happy...at last i can take this stupid thing out of my mouth.and eat whatever i feel like eating!~haha.i'm so crazy with happiness now.haha...

with loves; hugxkeiko
5/09/2005 05:12:00 PM

5/06/2005

oh my god.the rain is really really really crazy!i got half-drenched yesterday,and thoroughly drenched today.humph.another bad sign for my physics EXAM?!ugh... =X jus got back from holland V.yea,i know,it's mad right..go holland V for wat??!haha.ask my crazy frens. =X esp. huiyi.she's the one who always goes 'crazy places'.haha... =D
well,i dun feel too well for my physics.i SERIOUSLY think i'm going to fail physics.really.it's like,how many questions did i leave blank?!ugh.this is stupid.i dun think i'll ever have the chance to get my hp back. )= then...it's over between us.haha.sort of 'over'.he relies too much on the hp and sms.haix.really,without hp...it's bad. )=
aiya.jus now go holland V..went to Coffee Club.then..haha,not enough money to pay for the food!! =S cos we didnt think tt will have 10% service charge.oh my...so paiseh lor....actually went to the ATM,told the person to wait...then...raining.so...got wet...then..reach the ATM,after much difficult finding.and..surprise!not enough money to withdraw.huiyi lah..dunno the nets for wat de.cant even withdraw money out.so yea,no money to pay..short of like,$5.but then the person very kindly gave us 10% discount.or so he said.but then i think it's less than 10%. =X so i left Coffee Club,left with $1.10.haha.
actually today is ask yujia teach me remainder and factor theorem de.but then ended up going holland V eat n get drenched n get paiseh.wa lao.nice.and today's not even friday the 13th.next week then is 13th lor!wa lao.suay.anyway.i vow never to go holland V on a friday liao.bad things happen.haha. -.-
anyways..tues is bio paper..very the sianx.haix.some ppl are jus so lucky. =X very tired too.jus feel like sleeping.but then i know i wont wake up de.later dad scold me..so yea,never mind.shan't sleep. (= haix.dun want to type too much le lah..haha.have to go sweep the floor.MUST do household chores..haix. =X never mind.take it as training.so tt next time no need to hire maid!yay.then can save money!!haha.lame..

with loves; hugxkeiko
5/06/2005 02:58:00 PM

5/05/2005

whoa.nice rain man..got caught in the damn rain.then now reached home liao not raining.i'm so pissed. >,<>
haix.oh yea.listening to angela zhang's aurora album.for the past few nights..i like track no. 7..it's a sad piece but it's nice.pretty much describes how i feel.towards xx.haix.ok ok.i think i better stop talking about such stuff.otherwise my blog'd be pretty boring.. =X haix.but then all it seems that i can think about is that problem.i,of course,have other problems though.haix.
such as studies.haix.i think all my problems are linked together de.one leads to the other.haix.aiya.think i better stop sighing.later will very fast age de.haha. =P okay.today i was really really depressed after paper 1.humph.actually i cried lah.but then....when i cry,nobody knows. (= that's a good thing.really.i dun want everyone to know when i'm crying.yep.so no one noticed.i can say that i'm pretty good at hiding. x) good at acting too.i acted quite 'ok'.even though i wasn't feeling the least bit of ok inside.haix.never mind.it's sometimes good to have frens that only see the surface. (= so that they wont know wat i'm TRULY thinking and feeling.so they dun see the REAL ME.
oh no.i'm going to miss him.for about one week.no,i mean an extra one week.these two weeks already never talk to him le.there'll be another week without him.three weeks without him. )= jus nice.when i get my hp back(it's 'confiscated' now) he has to go away.overseas for a camp?!how stupid. =X haix...maybe we really aren't fated.is this even fate?haha.i think i gone crazy liao lah.wat with the exam stress.haha. =X haix.miss den miss lorr.after all,there was like,a period of around two months without him.and last year's june hols also wat..one whole month.haha.never mind.shall not think too much. (= i wont die de wat.haha.
ugh!!tomorrow's paper is PHYSICS!!!!!!!! UGH!!!! stressed.i cannot fail physics!haix...must study extra hard.but then...no motivation..the only motivation i have is to get into Hwa Chong.haha..yea,only i know the reason why. x) HCI rules. (= haha..influenced liao. =P yea.but then that is motivation for O'Levels wat. haix.never mind.shall take that as motivaiton for exams too.cos must work CONSISTENTLY.cannot pia at last minute. x) yep.so...HCI!!must jiayou... ;)

with loves; hugxkeiko
5/05/2005 02:08:00 PM

5/04/2005

Exams!! wa...so idiotic.i think i'm going to fail all the subjects..uh-oh.the radio's playing jay's song.i think i'm going to cry again.and this song is...sad.. )= humph.ok,back to exams. (i hope i dun break into tears..) ya.so.my lit sux.really.the question 1(b) was so.shocking. =X i really dunno how to do that question.not lying.if i cant even do well for the only subject i'm good at...i dunno wat's the point of..studying.*haix.really.i'm very disappointed..very.today's chem is.bad.really.i mean,chem is another subject that i have confidence of.and now... )= somehow i think i'm not focusing on my studies.too many 'distractions'.*haix
okay.so.i know i've decided to leave.but then.why.why must he always sms me when i've just made a decision?when i've jus decided tt i cant stand all this anymore,he has to sms me?is this sort of like,making me change my mind?!i'm so troubled.really.i dunno what to do.it's like,it's easier said than done..*haix i see other ppl's problems,i think to myself "wa lao.their problems r so small as compared to mine.their's are so easy to solve!"i wish i can trade lives with someone.humph.
i really wish there's a shoulder i can cry on.someone to comfort me.yet i look around me,and all i see are faces of strangers.i dun mean it as really lah.it's jus a literal comparison.but yea,all i c r faces of strangers.why?cos i dun think anyone understands me that well.that well to the extent that i can spill everything to tt person.no.all i c are ppl who only sees the surface.ppl who dun look deeper.deeper into the soul. )=
i dunno.i dunno why i'm even bothering myself over such stuff.but then,really.i dun have anywhere else to place all my troubles.i guess the best i can ever do is to spill something here.at least i get some load off my heart.at least maybe i feel lighter and better this way.i'm not sure if this really helps.all i know is that i'll be breaking down soon.i can feel it.

with loves; hugxkeiko
5/04/2005 02:00:00 PM

4/30/2005

Hee accessing blogger here via gprs..my hp lah in other words... :) haha actually didnt know hp can access here..yay next time can update blog anywhere anytime!haha..

with loves; hugxkeiko
4/30/2005 04:10:00 PM

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